New day

So you know how when other things happen to other people it puts your own problems into perspective? Well that's kind of what has happened to me this week. My problems of no job, missing my significant other, etc. are nothing in comparison to what others have had to endure this week. I do know that God sees all of us as individuals and helps each of us to find answers to our own problems, but sometimes we just want things fixed without having to struggle so much to get there.

My daughter reminded me this week that sometimes things need to get really bad before they can get good again. All I did was ask her to pray for all those in need. Especially Brian and his daughters this week. (Not going to put details in here, but just say a prayer that all will turn out for the best). That's what I am doing. I am also praying for me but sometimes I feel guilty asking God to help me when others seem to be in so much more in need of his help than me. But then I remember how great he is, and how everyone is important to him and he is there for everyone regardless of the size of their problems. So I remember to pray for myself, my 7 Godchildren, my own children, my family, and my friends. I also everyday pray for those whom I do not know that need comfort and consoling, food and shelter, and just happiness in life. It always makes me feel better to pray. Prayer is an incredible power that should never be taken for granted.

This week school is going well. I got "A"s in both of my classes that had quizzes. Reassures me that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing right now. My last post kinda portrayed my doubts, but I was reassured by friends in the nursing program, family, and friends I've had for a long time that this is the right path for me. My daughter reminded me that I get this way each time I have to say good bye to Brian, but Brian and I are strong and can handle this. He is very supportive of my schooling. I am excited to be in the program. I think each time I am confronted by doubt it is Satan trying to stop me. I have the feeling down deep that there is something really really really good that I will be doing once I am a nurse (not sure what it is yet) and that Satan tries to prevent my completing the nursing program. He is pretty good at it! But I am stronger with the help of God, my family, and my friends. I will conquer and be successful. I know it won't be easy, but I am stubborn enough to do this!!

Still no job prospects. Frustrating. The job I had lined up in Texas over the summer is not looking very promising. Benji (Brian's boss) laid him off last week, but called him today to work again and should be able to pay him the back pay he owes him. Has more jobs lined up, so hopefully things work out for Brian. I am going to work on getting my CNA certification back before the end of school, and maybe work as a CNA in the nursing homes or hospitals down there this summer. I know the hospitals are hurting for help. Then when I come back to MN, I will look for jobs as a CNA up here. Hard part is that in the nursing program, student get no say in their schedule.

The nursing program is set up to accommodate the 40 of us (that all that's admitted each semester out of over 200 that apply) and needs to be set to work for the limited number of professors and class times available. But it will all work out. After this semester ends (only 7 more weeks) I will only have 4 semesters left!! I am having to learn to write papers again. Which is not too bad. Having to learn a specific style of writing has been my biggest obstacle but I have prof. willing to help if needed, and online programs that help a lot too! There is something to be said for being an "older" student, because I have people on both ends of the spectrum willing to see that I have a strong knowledge base to build upon and yet don't understand a lot of the digital world.  Love my classmates!!